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8/2/2025, 1:39 AM

I want to make a more detailed about page someday because I feel the need to explain why my Linked clique character is Dimitri Fireemblem...... by all appearances that seems a bit strange and incongruent with my whole aesthetic here but I can not stress enough that unfortunately He's Just Like Me Fr.

check out my areadbhar tattoo:



and kira has one of the aegis shield (,,> ᴗ <,,) dimilix real!!!!!!!

7/30/2025, 3:08 PM

Adding timestamps to these entries heh... anyways i have some thoughts i want to write about when i'm not sleep deprived. i'm not in any reading or "bookish" communities but my guilty pleasure is watching drama gossip videos about that stuff on youtube. bookish people are WILD. anyways something that comes up is the idea of ethics, appropriateness, morality, etc. "Dark romance" is a hot topic for that and admittedly I actually don't usually watch videos about stuff like that because i'm really sensitive about anything that might slip into purity culture moral judgement shit. it makes me mad and i don't like being put back in the paranoid "omg am i a bad person because i like dark fiction?" headspace that i was in for years while on twitter. but those topics ARE very rich for discussion. i'm thinking a lot about spaces that media exist in, intent of the creator, should certain things be gatekept or relegated to niche communities... i want to examine and contrast "purposefully problematic" vs "unethical" creations, how to criticize art while maintaining an anti-censorship stance, the value of acknowledging the ick, the value of shock, squicks, gatekeeping is good sometimes actually, no kinkshaming but some fringe things should stay fringe, self-awareness, "is it bad or are you just grossed out?"

hopefully i can write this soon :) i think it'll help my ongoing studies and thesis too, tbh. but i'll share my first stab at it here.

7/30/2025

Well ok it's 2AM on 7/30 so to me that makes it feel like it's still 7/29 but i digress. i just needed to write that i'm so so so obsessed with making this website and surfing the indie web. i used to sit on the computer for HOURS since i was a tween all the way up into my early 20s... with social media infecting every facet of our lives i just stopped that for what seems like so long. i need to re-orient myself online and reconfigure my mindset more, but i'm really having fun.

questions to ask myself: why am i online? what am i doing when i get on my computer? why does this feel fun while sites like tumblr, etc. feel boring or (more accurately) stressful? is the fun i'm having here sustainable or a hyperfixation?

i didn't buy or make cold brew today so i guess i'm going to dunkin tomorrow for coffee heh......

7/29/2025

good to see the age-old tradition of using personality quiz sites for niche fetish roleplay is still alive!! /genuine

7/27/2025

HOLY SHIT HAVING A WEBSITE IS SO FUN!! This whole site is dedicated to 12-year-old me.